Back Problems
By Jason Glaze
Anyone who really knows me is well aware that I have screwed my life up more than once. I’ve made many mistakes that have caused myself and others pain. It’s not something I’m proud of and I don’t wear my sin on my sleeve like a badge. However as I experience life with God, from time to time I feel like sharing things I experience with Him hoping that what I’m going through can bring hope to someone else.
I recently experienced something that created a huge shift in my heart. It may sound simple, but for me it was life changing. I recently realized that I had back problems. When I say I had back problems, what I mean is without even really realizing it I had been trying to get back some things I’ve lost around five years ago. Things such as peace, love, stillness, rest, connection with God, etc.
Now don’t get me wrong, over the past five years I have had peace with God but I had been trying to get back the type of peace I used to have. I have experienced God’s love but I had been trying to get back the feeling of love that I use to have. I have experienced stillness and rest but I had been trying to duplicate the type of stillness and rest that I use to have. In the past five years I have been connected with God but I had been trying to get back the particular type of connection that I use to have. Do you get what I’m saying? Back problems.
A couple of months ago I felt myself beginning to feel tired and a bit hopeless as I struggled to re-create the things I use to experience with God. Then one day I believe Jesus whispered to my heart, “Jason, I don’t want you to try to get back what you think you have lost, I have been making all things new.” The freedom that those words has brought to me is indescribable. I had been all bound up because I had been trying to give CPR to a life that God wanted dead. I knew what I had to do, I had to let it die. I even had a funeral, I even grieved a little.
Today my back problems are gone and I’m resting in the reality that Jesus has made, and is making all things new. The daily freshness of God’s presence is like a new vase full of beautiful flowers that is at my bed side every morning, and I can enjoy Him because I know that new flowers will be there the next day. He is making all things new.
Have you grown tired of trying to get back what you’ve lost? Maybe it’s time to let it die as Jesus makes all things new.
Peace,
Jason
Praise God for “all things new” and enjoy all those beautiful flowers. I love you…..mom
Will do! Love you too.
Thanks Jason for this blog… Needed to be reminded today that there ARE people that have let the past die, had the funeral, grieved their way thru it and came out on the other side better for it! I feel like I’m just kinda flailing around in the letting the past die part, so it’s good to be reminded that there IS the ‘new’ part on the other side. Sometimes I forget and think I’ll be stuck here forever. Thanks for the blog!
Hey Ivy,
I’m so glad this post helped you. Keep flailing until it’s time walk and remember that He is flailing around with you.
Thank you Jason, for putting what Jesus has been speaking to me so beautifully into written words. I’ve been trying so hard to recreate Christmases Past, instead of resting and enjoying Christmas Present…….And like Ivy, I too feel like I’m flailing
around….thanks for reminding me, Jesus is with me. Now I’m kinda excited about the “new” thing, too. Love you bunches and bunches, Bek
Love you too Bek and Merry “new’ Christmas!!
Jason,
That was a very good blog…I actually believe I am having “back problems” too. Never even thought about it before, but you are so right, God is trying to make all things new and I need to spend more time on the present and what God is doing in my life, rather than wasting time trying to get “BACK” where I was with Him 6 years ago. You are so smart, thank for sharing that post.
Merry Christmas to you and your family.
Thanks,
Kim Airhart
Hey Kim!
Realizing you have back problems is a big deal. I’m so thankful that you will are more focused on the present now.
Merry Christmas!